Stillness. The space between thoughts. I’m curious to know what time spent in that space feels like. Is it a space or is it a feeling. Does it feel like home? Who’s been there and who can tell me what it feels like? Nah. I want to find out for myself. That’s why I continue to meditate. The idea that stillness lies within intrigues me. It intrigues me enough to continue with a meditation practice for more than a year now. I’m curious enough to keep going so I can find out what it’s like to not have a mind filled with the same random thoughts over and over, about the same old things. “Think something new.” I command myself. Um, that other voice says, “how do I do that?” How many voices do we have going in here anyway? No answer…probably a good thing.
Okay, so when you exercise you can push yourself a little harder and you can feel when you’ve pushed too hard so you dial it down. Feel the burn, blah, blah. How do you push yourself harder in meditation? Answer: You don’t. It’s not that kind of exercise. So, how do you know things are progressing?
When I first started meditating I practically hyperventilated. It’s hilarious in hindsight but I honestly thought I would never be able to quiet my breath. Guess what? You don’t have to. You just pay attention to your breath. I started to hyperventilate because I was trying to control it. The key is to just witness it, just breath and pay attention to it. Yup. It quiets the mind. Of course thoughts will come into your head, thousands of them but then you remember, oh I’m meditating and you get back to paying attention to your breath. It takes time. it gets easier. One day you’ll be meditating and you’ll notice that it’s easier than it used to be. Nice.
2 replies on “Stillness”
Hi D. Thanks for the blog. It’s been a year. Did you find the way to stillness?
Thanks for your inquiry. I feel very blessed. I have found I experience moments of stillness daily